everything has its antecedents.
paranoid personality disorder.
characterized by at least 3 of the following:
1. excessive sensitivity to setbacks and rebuffs
2. tendency to bear grudges persistently
3. suspiciousness and a pervasive tendency to distort experience by misconstruing the neutral or friendly actions of others as hostile or contemptuous
4. a combative and tenacious sense of personal rights out of keeping with the actual situation
5. recurrent suspicions, without justification, regarding sexual fidelity of spouse or sexual partner
6. tendency to experience excessive self-importance, manifest in a persistent self-referential attitude
7. preoccupation with unsubstantiated "conspiratorial" explanations of events both immediate to the patient and in the world at large
thank you, wikipedia.
all night hearing voices tellin' me
that i should get some sleep
cause tomorrow might be good for somethin'
but stay a while and maybe then you'll see
a different side of me.
perfection at 1:38 PM
i not only mourn the loss of kin.
but the loss of a supposed good friend.
thanks to all who made the birthday video a success!
it was definitely an interesting IT learning experience.
a bolster of courage.
evidence that one is still human and deserving.
a reminder that one will never again revert to old habits.
that who one is is held together by its very existence.
though, it is but extrinsic; an ash escort.
an instability that must be absolutely disconcerting.
disconcerting enough to fall away.
you cant play our broken strings
you cant feel anything
i tried to hold on but it hurts too much
i tried to forgive but its not enough
to make it all okay.
perfection at 3:51 PM
